I saw your post on hellobee. *hugs*  I didn't know you were going through all this the last 3 years!  Even though I only know you through the xanga community I'm so proud of you and think you are the bee's knees.  You are an amazing mom and I really applaude everything you have done for your little one.  I'm not on so much on xanga anymore, but msg me and we can get connected on FB if you like!